Unconditional

i growl at you
and you hug me
i shove you away
and you hold my hand
i tell you you're an idiot
for loving me
and you say "i love you
thank you for being you"
why do you put up with me
i gave up on me
a long long time ago
but for some reason
you keep holding on
and reaching out
despite my attitude
despite the hurt
despite my awfulness
you see something
i have no clue what
something good
that makes you hold on
even when i try to run away