There is a lot of pain to be found in these pages. Reading some of this kinda hurts now, seeing what a dark place I was in. I have come a long way since, but some of the shadows still linger. Please be safe when reading these pages. Some of it may be triggering.

Poetry

Badges -- Self-Injury Poem about Scars

Cutting -- Self-Injury Poem trying to explain cutting

Hidden Spark -- Poem about being in an abusive relationship and the effects it had

I Apologize -- Poem to the step-sister and step-brother of the guy who raped me when I was 15

Pain Within -- Self-Injury Poem about the whole process

Thoughts In Public -- Poem about being Agoraphobic and what it was like for me any time I had to go out in public during that time

Thoughts of Myself -- Fairly self-explanatory - poem about how I felt about myself

Unconditional -- Poem to a friend who stood by me through everything no matter what

Untitled -- Poem mostly dealing with depression and what it feels like

Anger -- Poem about never being able to please someone

I'm Alright -- Poem about my typical response when asked how I am doing

Lost -- Poem that the title is pretty self-explanatory about

Silent Screams -- Poem about how alone I've felt, that I'd never find someone to love me unconditionally

Essays

Growing Up With a Physical Disability -- What it was like growing up with a physical disability that wasn't very obvious.

It's Not Your Fault -- Essay about rape/abuse survivors and the tendency for society to blame them

Self-Injury and Cutting -- Me trying to explain some of the motivations that can be behind it and bring some understanding.

My Story -- Part of my story

Terror -- A journal entry from when I was 15 and in an abusive relationship